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Whatever, logged on - Did Some VoA's that Sie was supposed to be in but she didn't get invites so I feel she gets pissed at me, so I'm pissed at myself. Then she just hops toons and does randoms alone so it only re-inforces my thoughts. I leave for a while and apparently AIM effed up when I alt f4'd and kicked me off so I thought if I said it wasn't intentional or something, well it wasn't, that something would happen or something idk. Went on later did my Kara and ZG and finally got the Warhorse, just made me think of how she complains that she doesn't have a cool mount for Ikuta but I've offered before if she has wanted to come to ZG and she always just says no, and so I logged on and she's just running her heroics still and then I log. Pretty much I'm just feeling terrible, asked if I should go to raid or not, no answer, whatever. Went, almost left intentionally by afk'ing but then later she asks if I want to tank something and I genuinely started to feel better and she just laughs at me and I ask why and of course her fucking answer is idk. I swear to god one of these days I'm going to just go ballistic. Later we do a weekly and blah afterwards, went into an IC to pass time see if she would ever answer about going somewhere but she just says idk and logs. Earlier too she was supposed to go to a baseball game and ended up not, and all I was doing was offering suggestions on ways to still go and all she has to say is that her mom agrees with her and that's good enough and then just doesn't respond to me after. Essentially I feel she knows what she wants to do but if I ask it's idk, idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk bye. The otehr day I had asked her how a party went, she said good, and I never reponded because I was hoping she would elaborate without me having to ask, of course not though. Something else to add, idk. More. Oh, right her wut's. Half the time I swear she doesn't read what I say, how what can be a question just baffles me, be more concise for god's sake.
I think I just have the need to feel wanted

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sietelle From: sietelle Date: August 2nd, 2010 01:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
i don't get mad at you that i don't get invited to voa's, seems like a lot of people forget that someone has a friend and then they just fill up the group anyway and then they're like "oh ... oh well lol"

i do randoms to pass the time while you're doing your raid with tm, and can always do again for you/r chars, unless you mean it's while you're in voa , but idk what else to do ..

you thought something would happen after you said the AIM thing wasn't intentional ..?

getting a cool mount for ikuta isn't really a big deal to me , and that time you wrote this i thought i was going to go with you to zg... but you never invited me and then you were in stv so i thought you just didn't want me to go or something, i was just sitting in dalaran

whether you should go to raid or not is up to you, why would i say no you shouldn't ..?

i wasn't laughing at you, i thought it was funny/weird that you were excited to tank voa..i didn't really want to say that though cause it wasn't funny/weird to you
and i always try to get you in if you're available/on the computer

whenever you ask what i want to do / where i want to go i say idk because i always think that what i wanna be doing is being with you, watching a movie or playing chess or something/anything, not playing wow, so when you ask i just think about that and how i can't even go on that artist residency thing 'cause i'm too scared and then i don't want to play wow
and i can't really answer with that when you ask what i want to do

baseball game wasn't that important to me, it was too late at that point to change my mind even though you wanted me to still go, it was either go to the baseball game and screw up my then good sleeping sched because i can't sleep at someone else's house or play wow with you, plus it was hard to explain on the phone without just forwarding you the texts or something..

i know what i want to do but i can't do those things yet 'cause i suck^

party was just a party, idk i just didn't feel very talkative that night/was tired, half of these things though i don't remember just stopping replying to you..if i did it wasn't on purpose, i was probably doing something.. and i thought about how you say you don't like to bother me while we're at dinner for bdays or something.. so i thought that you just were trying not to IM so much 'cause of that

if i say wut while you're on vent it's 'cause the last part of the sentence i didn't even hear 'cause it cuts off 'cause of latency or whatever..and then when you just type a few words i'm trying to figure out exactly what you mean .. i'm not trying to make you mad, i really just don't get it..

you are wanted, a lot
i just fail at showing it

i'll say/type idk and then regret it right after because it's just a habit even in speech/just in conversation but then right after i'll say the answer.. or just how "idk" can mean "i'm not sure how to say it", not literally that i don't know..

i just always think about how much they bug you more and more and then other things will bug you, until you just can't even talk to me 'cause it's just annoying every convo and then i just don't want to talk about it/this because it'll probably happen in that convo too/make it worse
'cause i had said it doesn't really bother you right now, but eventually you're just gonna get tired of it all
miamoresparasie From: miamoresparasie Date: August 10th, 2010 09:39 am (UTC) (Link)
Maybe not you but I do at myself sort of and then I sort of just assume I guess

I know, I don't know

Don't recall

I stop asking stuff 'cause I assume no is answer

Not sure

I know, I was just overreacting

How much did you look into it, from what I read it seemed like you had to teach a lecture while you were there or something to contribute for a day or something

Yeah, I just didn't like the end of convo

2 Way Street

It makes sense

I suck at vent

I don't like it but I guess it doesn't like infuriate me, I don't swell up my face and get the evil look in my eyes
just happens a lot

sietelle From: sietelle Date: August 10th, 2010 03:58 pm (UTC) (Link)
don't stop asking stuff

idk i only read what was on that page and i don't think i could do it

miamoresparasie From: miamoresparasie Date: August 13th, 2010 03:14 am (UTC) (Link)
vary your answers

the gaps in dates you had to sign up were gross

sietelle From: sietelle Date: August 13th, 2010 05:19 am (UTC) (Link)
longer comment replies okty
miamoresparasie From: miamoresparasie Date: August 15th, 2010 07:02 am (UTC) (Link)
I had thought that also
sietelle From: sietelle Date: August 15th, 2010 08:20 am (UTC) (Link)
my first one was really really long
miamoresparasie From: miamoresparasie Date: August 16th, 2010 10:05 am (UTC) (Link)
and then I effed it up
sietelle From: sietelle Date: August 16th, 2010 02:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
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